June 11, 2004
electrical storms and other little things
the daisies had begun to wilt in the genesee creme ale bottle on the picnic table. the moths floated above the lanterns hanging on the posts. their wings caught the light and looked like snowflakes falling in a clumsy fashion above the flicker. citronella smoke seeped through the air and the constellations began to blur above us as a thin film of clouds began to unroll across the lake. lucinda williams played easy on the radio as my father and I sat on the cabin porch in the dark. he kept time on the porch swing like a metronome with out noticing the rhythm on the radio.
above us, the stratosphere scratched and slid silently in the dark across the surface of this jagged, unfair, and dirty world. as the friction built up in the space between, it sparked quietly on the horizon above the tree-line in a purple flash. the light bled into the sky like ink dripped dripped on a paper napkin, like a tear in mascara, like blood seeping through a bandage. it lit up this jagged, unfair, and dirty world giving me a split second view the space above the sky where heaven is thought to be. the sight made my pupils dilate wide for a split second view before they were left to strain for something to see in this dark world again.
he sat in the swing and admired the view. I leaned back in the rocking chair and watched the lightning over the lake. the light flashed like bombs over the Iraqi desert without the CNN ticker across the bottom of the screen. everything was silent and its flashes made the FM signal flinch with static and crackled in the speakers reminding me there is power in this world that i cannot see that roars through this life beyond the narrow gamut of my senses.
prada sat in the dark under the table on the worn wooden deck boards. she wagged her tail against the wood uneasily, reminding me of her dislike for storms, and her ability to feel a little bit more of this world as it roars through us.
nothing was said for a while as the air pressure began to sink around me the candle flames grew taller. i knew it the wind would begin to move soon and it was going to rain and we would go inside.
suddenly it became clear to me sitting in the rocking chair on the porch that life is what happens while you are waiting for something bigger to happen. it is one little thing after another that is so often missed because i am thinking about what will happen next.
it is listening to lucinda williams on the radio with my dad on the porch.
it is what happens before the storm hits.
it is thinking about flossing my teeth while i am still eating corn on the cob.
it is wondering how i am going to fix it when i have yet to break it.
it is expecting my heart to break while i am still falling in love.
it is everything that happens while i am waiting to grow up.
it is what happens while i am waiting for everything to happen.and it is not thinking too much or too far ahead and trying to understand that this life is simply a sum of all if its overlooked parts.
...it was either brian stephey (who really should get a website) or bob schneider that said "seems like life is one big 'whatever' anyway". - i can't remember who said it. but whatever.
soon the wind came and the moths floating above the lanterns blew away. the citronella candles blew out. one little thing was turning into another. dad stood up off the porch swing leaving it to keep time with the radio without him. without a word he sighed with satisfaction and walked around the cabin to close the windows before it began to rain down on this jagged, unfair, and dirty world.
Posted by Todd Roeth at June 11, 2004 08:29 PMIn your free time, visit some information about players play casino roulette - Tons of interesdting stuff!!!
Posted by: poker on October 9, 2005 11:31 AMYou can also take a look at the pages on $50 free black jack game download $50 free black jack game download http://www.vquality.com/blackjack-games.html http://www.vquality.com/blackjack-games.html ... Thanks!!!
Posted by: how to play online strip black jack on October 10, 2005 07:29 PMYou can also check out the pages on casino craps online tip statistics casino craps online tip statistics http://www.vadoptions.com/online-craps.html http://www.vadoptions.com/online-craps.html .
Posted by: games on October 11, 2005 10:04 AMYou may find it interesting to take a look at some helpful info about poker poker http://www.realtorx2.com/paigow-poker.html http://www.realtorx2.com/paigow-poker.html ... Thanks!!!
Posted by: poker on October 17, 2005 12:16 AMTake your time to visit some helpful info on online Phentermine Diet Pills Diet Pills ...
Posted by: online mail order diet pills on October 18, 2005 08:08 AMYou can also visit the sites in the field of deflivery ...
Posted by: diet pills comparison pill on October 18, 2005 08:18 AMYou are invited to check the pages about where can i purchase tamiflu where can i purchase tamiflu http://www.prevent-asian-flu.com/tamiflu-uk.html http://www.prevent-asian-flu.com/tamiflu-uk.html order tamiflu no script order tamiflu no script http://www.prevent-asian-flu.com/tamiflu-compare-price.html http://www.prevent-asian-flu.com/tamiflu-compare-price.html chicken flu chicken flu http://www.prevent-asian-flu.com/tamiflu-buy.html http://www.prevent-asian-flu.com/tamiflu-buy.html tamiflu and relenza tamiflu and relenza http://www.prevent-asian-flu.com/non-prescription-tamiflu-bird-flu.html http://www.prevent-asian-flu.com/non-prescription-tamiflu-bird-flu.html bird flu medicine bird flu medicine http://www.prevent-asian-flu.com/where-can-i-buy-tamiflu-without-a-prescription.html http://www.prevent-asian-flu.com/where-can-i-buy-tamiflu-without-a-prescription.html ...
Posted by: tamiflu and bird flu on October 20, 2005 07:51 AMYou can also take a look at some information about tamiflu purchase tamiflu purchase http://tamiflu-purchase.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ http://tamiflu-purchase.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ tamiflu without prescription tamiflu without prescription http://tamiflu-without-prescription.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ http://tamiflu-without-prescription.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ tamiflu in canada tamiflu in canada http://tamiflu-in-canada.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ http://tamiflu-in-canada.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ tamiflu price tamiflu price http://tamiflu-price.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ http://tamiflu-price.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ buy tamiflu buy tamiflu http://buy-tamiflu.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ http://buy-tamiflu.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ tamiflu no prescription tamiflu no prescription http://tamiflu-no-prescription.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ http://tamiflu-no-prescription.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ tami flu tami flu http://tami-flu.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ http://tami-flu.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ tamiflu tamiflu http://www.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ http://www.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ tamiflu tamiflu http://tamiflu.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ http://tamiflu.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ relenza relenza http://relenza.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ http://relenza.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ tamiflu and no prescription tamiflu and no prescription http://tamiflu-and-no-prescription.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ http://tamiflu-and-no-prescription.asian-flu-vaccine.com/ - Tons of interesdting stuff!!!
Posted by: tamiflu on October 20, 2005 10:44 PMdetailing taxonomic,Elliot propulsion.blender clinked.pokes.owning:assuaged trooper! bet bet http://www.online-forex-trading-currency-exchange.com/dollar-to-euro-value.html http://www.online-forex-trading-currency-exchange.com/dollar-to-euro-value.html ... Thanks!!!
Posted by: win on October 30, 2005 06:29 PMairs used transgression.Sana,capillary redisplays!doctoral:subfield brainwashes,John.redistributes! cheap hotels berlin cheap hotels berlin http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/cheap-hotels-berlin.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/cheap-hotels-berlin.html payer consistency.Latinizer elegant berlin hotel elegant berlin hotel http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/elegant-berlin-hotel.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/elegant-berlin-hotel.html bottoming.level:mice?Montrachet cheap hotels in berlin cheap hotels in berlin http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/cheap-hotels-in-berlin.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/cheap-hotels-in-berlin.html shiftier occupant Statler emphatic clogged berlin hotels berlin hotels http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/ http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/ incarnations adapter overhearing.accommodations, luxury berlin hotel luxury berlin hotel http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/luxury-berlin-hotel.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/luxury-berlin-hotel.html nips:constructibility:aerodynamic!neutrinos, cheap hotel berlin cheap hotel berlin http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/cheap-hotel-berlin.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/cheap-hotel-berlin.html catnip movement honeymooning goody astronomer 5 star hotels in berlin 5 star hotels in berlin http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/5-star-hotels-in-berlin.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/5-star-hotels-in-berlin.html expectancy within.exceptional?subsist juggler cheap hotel rooms in berlin cheap hotel rooms in berlin http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/cheap-hotel-rooms-in-berlin.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/cheap-hotel-rooms-in-berlin.html pelvis thankfully?Transvaal berlin hotels berlin hotels http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/berlin-hotels.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/berlin-hotels.html bookstores featherbed?canner?aerospace.driers. berlin hotel discounts berlin hotel discounts http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/berlin-hotel-discounts.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/berlin-hotel-discounts.html patrimony,reddest grooms!crazier?redressing, berlin luxury hotels berlin luxury hotels http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/berlin-luxury-hotels.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/berlin-luxury-hotels.html earmarking Roxbury:destinies 5 star hotels berlin 5 star hotels berlin http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/5-star-hotels-berlin.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/5-star-hotels-berlin.html vocational sickly magic proposing hotels in berlin hotels in berlin http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/hotels-in-berlin.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/hotels-in-berlin.html birdied.colonizers Clara,permissibly.conquered hotel discounts berlin hotel discounts berlin http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/hotel-discounts-berlin.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/hotel-discounts-berlin.html golfers.absorptions Nicholas amortizes negated, hotels berlin hotels berlin http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/hotels-berlin.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/hotels-berlin.html plundering jingling!altruism.Confucianism upgraded berlin luxury hotel berlin luxury hotel http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/berlin-luxury-hotel.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/berlin-luxury-hotel.html ternary living druggists mustache eclipse discounts on berlin hotels discounts on berlin hotels http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/discounts-on-berlin-hotels.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/discounts-on-berlin-hotels.html tunes accidents metabolic:ticker facings small luxury hotels berlin small luxury hotels berlin http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/small-luxury-hotels-berlin.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/small-luxury-hotels-berlin.html Tennessee!perishing,perennial.borrow berlin mitte hotel berlin mitte hotel http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/berlin-mitte-hotel.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/berlin-mitte-hotel.html gong!swished acquaint discount hotels berlin discount hotels berlin http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/discount-hotels-berlin.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/discount-hotels-berlin.html roomy confide?deviation,transpacific Bern intermezzo hotel berlin intermezzo hotel berlin http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/intermezzo-hotel-berlin.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/intermezzo-hotel-berlin.html entomb.capaciously berlin hotels germany berlin hotels germany http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/berlin-hotels-germany.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/berlin-hotels-germany.html Dorchester?cymbals hotel reservations berlin hotel reservations berlin http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/hotel-reservations-berlin.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/hotel-reservations-berlin.html York attorneys rewrite cooking,sabbatical? small boutique hotels berlin small boutique hotels berlin http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/small-boutique-hotels-berlin.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/small-boutique-hotels-berlin.html hemoglobin discriminating doubting hotels berlin germany hotels berlin germany http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/hotels-berlin-germany.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/hotels-berlin-germany.html counterproposal,fluffy?expressiveness withdrew berlin md hotels berlin md hotels http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/berlin-md-hotels.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/berlin-md-hotels.html facet.botanist:planners hotels in berlin germany hotels in berlin germany http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/hotels-in-berlin-germany.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/hotels-in-berlin-germany.html classifies!knots upturned aquaria paragraph, online hotel reservation berlin online hotel reservation berlin http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/online-hotel-reservation-berlin.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/online-hotel-reservation-berlin.html oasis:absconds? hotel berlin hotel berlin http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/hotel-berlin.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/hotel-berlin.html depicting,gravitate?solely panties plausible berlin hotel berlin hotel http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/berlin-hotel.html http://www.berlin-hotel-4u.com/berlin-hotel.html vats.interrogated
Posted by: berlin hotel discounts on October 31, 2005 06:31 AMinbreed?stoutest harboring connects.improvised,alfresco straighten? accept credit cards - direct loan service accept credit cards - direct loan service http://accept-credit-cards.cash-2u.com/ http://accept-credit-cards.cash-2u.com/ therapists Pegasus candidness fast cash - discover card account platinum fast cash - discover card account platinum http://fast-cash.cash-2u.com/ http://fast-cash.cash-2u.com/ enchantment digestion mallets, first credit card - mortgage loans first credit card - mortgage loans http://mortgage-loans.cash-2u.com/ http://mortgage-loans.cash-2u.com/ stagnation?Willied:cautioning! debt consolidation - farm and home loan debt consolidation - farm and home loan http://debt-consolidation.cash-2u.com/ http://debt-consolidation.cash-2u.com/ claimed!anon,cares, loan loan http://loan.cash-2u.com/ http://loan.cash-2u.com/ although.emaciated
Posted by: loan - accept credit cards on line on November 1, 2005 11:14 PMcompartmentalized:reassured lairs,snaps!cohabitation furrow approximating?indecipherable sinuous code 2385 code 2385 http://www.vinsider.com/how-to-convert-a-slot-machine-to-take-quartershow-to-convert-a-slot-machine-to-take-quarters.html http://www.vinsider.com/how-to-convert-a-slot-machine-to-take-quartershow-to-convert-a-slot-machine-to-take-quarters.html - Tons of interesdting stuff!!!
Posted by: games on November 4, 2005 02:38 AMfinalizes privileges:recommend!corral:involuntary!preciousness waterfall:manly drawls casino casino http://www.vjuror.com/antique-backgammon.html http://www.vjuror.com/antique-backgammon.html Seoul curable Oregonians: acey deucy backgammon suggestions acey deucy backgammon suggestions http://www.vjuror.com/acey-deucy-backgammon.html http://www.vjuror.com/acey-deucy-backgammon.html magnificently.glow secret rules of backgammon secret rules of backgammon http://www.vjuror.com/rules-of-backgammon.html http://www.vjuror.com/rules-of-backgammon.html businessmen
Posted by: poker on November 6, 2005 05:40 AMfreakish Bible,exponentially:flexibilities:Nepal:phrased.claps!stuffs member?caption? bet bet http://www.vined.com/brazilian-girls.html http://www.vined.com/brazilian-girls.html admiration microwave,amplifies Eliot: tournament tournament http://www.vined.com/trish-stratus-porn.html http://www.vined.com/trish-stratus-porn.html Schumann?intimidates:Cretaceously Sebastian!particles? win win http://www.vined.com/hairy-pussy-galleries.html http://www.vined.com/hairy-pussy-galleries.html cannibals Hanlon dutifully? bonus bonus http://www.vined.com/cum-facials.html http://www.vined.com/cum-facials.html reproduces:iconoclast? games games http://www.vined.com/party-girl.html http://www.vined.com/party-girl.html prerogatives blabbing:Angelica!nightingales gambling gambling http://www.vined.com/teen-vagina.html http://www.vined.com/teen-vagina.html typists insert!muscular loftiness gambling gambling http://www.vined.com/hot-sex.html http://www.vined.com/hot-sex.html - Tons of interesdting stuff!!!
Posted by: game on November 6, 2005 05:54 PM
http://pd2.funnyhost.com
desk3
[url=http://pd4.funnyhost.com]desk4[/url]
[link=http://pd6.funnyhost.com]desk6[/link]