November 09, 2003
Saturday night. (alt. lyrics)
The night was black. Steam was falling out of our throats like from the tail pipes of idling cement trucks. and it felt as heavy. It was saturday evening and we were walking down the road where Prescott and i grew up. we were still young enough to be foolish, cold enough to feel old, and dirty enough to be happy. the tailights lit up like a nickle slot machine in a reno truck stop. They stopped up ahead after passing us and sat still.
"It's your dad." Prescott announced as jogged up ahead to welcome our rescue.
We piled into the truck bed like a black and white photo of wounded soldiers being rescued in a helicopter from vietnam. Water ran down my leg and out of my pants onto the black pavement as it slid under the open tailgate and fell onto the road were we grew up.
My dad laughed and told us he and my mother had been out shopping for new tires for the truck. he said they didn't recognize us when he passed. Obvioulsy he has never seen his son and his friends climbing out of the creek trodding down the road sopping wet in the dark. Or at least he didn't remember doing so.
They never even thought to ask us why were were soaking wet and filthy in 40 degree weather walking down the empty road in the dark.
As i sat against Prescott's cold legs and watched Matt open a flask and pour whiskey down his tailpipe. i felt my heart beat. i looked at my torn pants. i watched the moonlight blanket us like an iridium halo, keeping us young enough to feel and foolish enough to hurt.
i thought about all the struggleing and climbing and crawling and punching and writhing in the dark that we do in our lives when we are young enough not to be questioned for being soaking wet and filthy in 40 degree weather walking down an empty road in the dark.
i thought about what it is like to spend a saturday evening shopping for new tires for the truck.
i thought about what it would be like to feel my feet again.
growing up is hard to do. especially with friends like mine. and as we laid stacked like wounded soldiers in the truck bed, blanketed with moonlight and shrouded in youth, i tried to understand how much i had and how little of it can be quantified. my heart and my mind were sleeping warmly in opposite directions half a world away. and someday my body might be too. and should they all meet up someday at a tire store on a saturday night, i will try then to understand how much i will have, and remember the back of that truck with it's old tires and my good friends riding through the darkness of my youth.
The soldiers laid shivering beside me with black water running out of their boots. I began to laugh. I laughed at all the dark we live through, at the look on stephey's face, and at the thought of ever being questioned for being soaking wet and filthy in 40 degree weather walking down an empty road in the dark.
Posted by Todd Roeth at November 9, 2003 11:46 PMSo could you not feel your feet because you were cold, or because you had so much sauce in you that you thought it would be a good idea to go swimming in 40 degree weather?
Posted by: d on November 14, 2003 09:48 AMfirst of all it was in the thirties. second of all i had that look on my face because i fell in an a hallucination and i couldn't tell if the heat/pain sensation I had in my feet were from them dragging on the pavement while your dad was driving or just from hypothermia. i can't wait till next time.
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